State of the Proxy February 2008, Valentine’s Day Edition
I’ll be talking about real life, so if you don’t like mundane stuff you can stop here.
First off, last year I spent Valentine’s Day at the office working overtime. Now it’s a little better, I’m spending it at home with my beloved PC. :-p
Looking back at January, at the start I thought I could do more posts on this blog. However, it was not to be. That time, I was in a state of panic, depression, and paralysis.
Panic. Perhaps it actually started the day I came back from Japan in late November 2007, and just got shoved in my face when a sudden reorganization at the place I work happened. It was the realization that after 3 years of working at my current job, I hadn’t made significant progress in my personal and professional life. Actually, there was only marginal improvement. As I work in the IT industry, my skills right now might not be enough to compete in the job market if ever I choose to look for another job. I had become too comfortable in my work–I became complacent. I brushed off learning new technologies and gaining new responsibilities as bothersome. I refused to get out of my comfort zone and stagnated. Sad but true. So I frantically tried to come up with a plan to stop my stagnation and spent many nights thinking about it. Actually, I just became…
Depressed. As a pessimist by nature, it wasn’t long before I entertained gloomy thoughts. It seems funny now because I actually attended a seminar regarding positive thinking and I seemed to have forgotten what I learned. Pushing out negative thoughts is easier said than done. And those days of depression led to a state of…
Paralysis. I wasn’t very productive when my stress level was high, but thankfully the work was not as demanding as it was last year (at least for now). And because I wasn’t in the mood for anything really creative, a lot of blog post ideas never got published. Add to that the fact that I am not really that good when it comes to time management. Hence so little was accomplished. Perhaps that was the reason I kept on rewatching my favorite shows instead of watching new ones–I was looking for solace in shows that I really enjoyed.
Maybe I’m just being hard on myself, but right now it does seem I could have, or should have, accomplished more. I have come to the conclusion that, perhaps, I should set my standards for myself higher, accomplish more, do as much as I can. And I’m also hoping that carries over to this blog.
And I’m also hoping everyone enjoys Valentine’s Day, single or not. Ja! 🙂